Wednesday, 31 March 2010

I've always been a bit obsessive about food. Calorie counting, measuring the fat content and how many carbs are in food fill my head some days. I am 5 feet 3 and just under 9 stone. I weigh myself every day and feel really stressed if I go over the magic 9 stone mark....

I was never really fat, being 10 stone 2 at my heaviest. I lead a reasonably stressful life, juggling a full time job, two kids, relationship and all the rest of the stuff that goes with being a modern mum. Am I the only one who is like this? I've got a wedding to go to, and a weekend away to Valencia at the end of May and all I can think about is getting to 8 and a half stone in time.

I love to cook and bake like a mad woman some weekends. My fridge and cupboards are full. I spend vast amounts in Sainsburys. I've not had a bacon sarnie or baked potato with butter for God know how long. I manage to hide my obsessions from my family....I think. I am obsessed with food and totally petrified of it and how I can control what goes into my body.

Is this the way a 45 year old woman should be?

11 comments:

auntiegwen said...

I'm just as obsessive, same height get stressed when I get over my I can cope with this weight.

feck I'll be glad when I'm 80 and can eat what I like

I haven't forgotten my meme, it's on my to do list :) xxx

Kate said...

Well, I can sympathise - sort of. I want to lose weight too and get fitter again. But life's kind of too short never to eat a bacon sarnie, or a baked potato with butter. I think the past couple of years have taught me that I need to enjoy myself now, not next week or next year. 'Everything in moderation' is quite a good motto I think. No-one else notices whether you are a few pounds heavier or lighter. People are interested in more than that! Next time you bake- eat some of it for goodness sake. The world will not end!!! And enjoy the wedding.

what happened ?how did i get HERE? said...

hmm, AG, we could be twins...!

And yes Kate, life it too short and I feel bad about being so shallow.....but not so bad I'll stop obsessing! I suppose it's linked to self esteem and not feeling good about myself in general....ooh, better stop now as I'm getting into 'head up arse' territory!

muummmmeeeeee...... said...

Yup think we're all like it! The harder I try to diet the more I seem to put on...

Moannie said...

When you get too my age [oh don't you just hate it when old people begin a sentence like that?] you will realise just how much time you have wasted fretting about a few pounds. I was going to begin with 'life's too short to diet' but Kate beat me too it.

It is YOU that matters, YOU who is loved, not your weight or what you wear.
I'v never been a ten in my entire life-well since I was twelve-buy a ten and say you have lost weight suddenly.

Looking for Blue Sky said...

Whatever works for you! My diet is half healthy - veg, fruit, nuts, seeds and oats, but complemented by large helpings of coffee, cheese and chocolate :) I just minimise the stuff I'm not bothered by, like meat and carbs, to stave off the need for elasticated waistlines...

libby said...

Hi...new to your blog, but you made me laugh...I am only going to advise one thing..get rid of the scales! don't weigh yourself everyday...that way madness lies..

Mrs Worthington said...

I spent most of my youth counting calories and the more I dieted the more obsessed I became about food. Then I discovred exercise so I run so I can eat or drink what ever I want. I love running and I love eating. Running gets rids of my stress levels 2 or three times a week and means I can eat what I want. Find something that works for you and love yourself for you are.

what happened ?how did i get HERE? said...

Thank you all!! Glad that it's not just me....! And Mrs W, I have booked an appointment with a lovely young man at the gym - will keep you posted!!

Belgravia wife - sort of said...

Well hello - I sort of have a similar obsession in a different way - I obsess about food all the time - good food, cooking and all the rest of it - I don't think I am tubby but for the last couple of years- I got really roly poly with baby number three - i have just felt that life would be dandy if I could get rid of five pesky kilos....I can't diet I love food too much and I eat well, I have a horrid feeling it's Middle Age Spread which leaves me two options - Margaret Thatcher or Tina Turner ?? Sounds obvious but when I walk loads I do notice a reduction in my acquired lard. Loving the blog !

Tracey said...

You are not the only one. I think we all tend to yo yo a bit, in the Winter all you want to do is eat, I blogged last week about this subject. I am exactly the same height and weight as you and have just beaten my sugar addiction.
Tracey
www.tracey-confessionsofamother.blogspot.com